Thumping and the rest

thumpers

met the gallbladders on thurs and we went to thumpers where it was ladies's night. managed to get in despite the new age limit of 23 though the bouncer had half a mind to turn us away cos qy and i looked too young. well next time i'll ditch my specs, k. probably should have done that ages ago too. first thing i went in, the bartender threw sth at me. no, he wasn't rude; he was my coursemate last sem! what a coincidence. the music was loud and good and the crowd, tame. had vodka sprite/coke/ribena and lychee and watermelon martini. the watermelon one tasted a little funny. the others were just alcoholic. went off rather early so that we wouldn't get robbed by cab companies later.

math and sci day

the kids were a real terror.

i got paid to read sense and sensibility for 2 hours before i got to do work. but once work started, i was shouting over the din and chaos for 2-3 hours non-stop. wow, was i hoarse after that. some kids are really quite intelligent and lovable, others are the anti-thesis: mischievious and cannot care less. some students are just natural leaders; others can only help behind the scenes, quite at a loss as how to explain and handle a simple situation.

but nonetheless, the teachers had love enough for all of them to be friendly, approachable and caring. they take pains to organise activities for them and persuade the children to do their best and help themselves. it was end of term, and parents came to school to understand how their children are doing. they too have so much love for the children.

it was a day that really opened my eyes.
i don't think i have enough love and fortitute to teach and guide kids. maybe just sufficient to handle my own children.
to all teachers: i salute you.

safra yishun

went to shoot there for the first time with a compressed air gun. it was totally different from shooting at cdans.

mark

my type of guy.

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world. And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person. With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

What's Your Element?

Quiz time!

Your Birthdate: February 11

Your birth on the 11th day of the month makes you something of a dreamer and an idealist. You work well with people because you know how to use persuasion rather than force. There is a strong spiritual side to your nature, and you may have intuitive qualities inherent in your make up, too. You are very aware and sensitive, though often temperamental. Although you have a good mind and you are very analytical, you may not be comfortable in the business world. You are definitely creative and this influence tends to make you more of a dreamer than a doer.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

This is so true.

Discipline

Shooting is a very disciplined activity.

You need to know when to put down the gun and not fire off. When the action is not right; when the sights are not correct; when the stance is wrong; when your wrist is not locked; when you are swaying. And many other things.

You need to know when to pause for a while and not continue shooting more shots. When your grouping starts opening up; when your arm is screaming in fatigue; when you start to see a galaxy forming on your target card.

Shooting is just like doing an mcq exam. You may not know then answer immediately when you read the question and the subsequent options. So you circle the question. You pause and read the question and options again. You answer only when you are quite certain that that is the correct answer.

So you fire off when you know that it is going to be a good shot.

You don't have to fire off the first time you lift the pistol and look through the sights. You can take 2 tries, 5 tries or even 10 tries if you want. You want to land a good shot.

GGR

Get Rea! on CNA was talking about girls watching girls and girls liking girls last night. Diana Ser talked about how girls are holding hands on the streets (I think that is ok actually), how girls become infatuated with other girls and how the objects of such affection are affected and react.

Coming from a girls school myself, I could totally relate to what the girls who were interviewed said. Although I have not had and do not have any emotional relationships with other girls (and I have always been looking for my Prince Charming), I think what they said about GGR being quite a natural thing to go into is true.

It is so much easier to be around girl friends and to trust them. Maybe it is precisely because we all just want to be friends and so I don't feel like I have to guess at what other motives the girl friend might have. And in this way, the relationship just becomes deeper and more comfortable as time passes. We become really really good friends. This friendship is something that I really enjoy and hold dear in my heart.

I feel "threatened" when guy friends try to get closer sometimes. I guess it's because I don't know what to expect and I don't know how to react. Then it all becomes quite tiring, especially when I know that he is not the one. I just want us to remain friends and I am quite glad that we are such good friends. But that's all. But this is obviously not what he expects. Maybe I just don't have enough experience with guys eh.

But what ever it is, I believe that GGR is really quite prevalent. It's just that it's all "underground" since it is not socially acceptable. And if society is not ready to do so anytime soon, then these girls are going to have a tough time ahead.

Procrastination is my middle name

I always procrastinate when I have to do something that I don't like. And the more important it is, the more I put it off. It's probably because I am just too scared. By putting it off, I can assauge my fears, albeit momentarily. Yet, all through the time before it gets done, I get stabs of panic and anxiety when it feels like I have an internal stethoscope amplifying every boom my heart makes. You say, then, isn't the conclusion obvious in this case. Just do it, since however long you put put it off, that is going to the the length of time you are going to have no peace. Yes, right. Except that while my conscious mind clearly accepts this rational argument, the little devil in my subconscious is whispering, "No, you can do it later. It's still not too late tomorrow..."

Except that most of the time, it is.

I need to grow thicker skin.

Image source: http://www.cs.usu.edu/~watson/bartholomew/armorimages.html

Sigh

I missed a call from the job agency today because my phone was on silent and I was preoccupied with vacuum cleaner at that time. When I discovered the missed call half an hour later, I called back but no one answered. *sigh*

I am supposed to be Miss Go-Get-it-Girl! today, so I resolved to call Ms C to ask whether she got my resume. But I got the answering machine both times. *sigh* Now I think I've lost my nerve! Popo. I think I'll call tomorrow morning. Maybe she has a errand that took her out of the office today.

I finally took jade's advice and asked. Now I'm in a dilemma. Is it better to work for free at the school labs (and make my cv more impressive) or to work as some trashy thing so that I'll have money for a laptop?

Personally I want very much to enhance my cv. I think that will be more valuable in the long run. But then this decision also depends on whether *** wants me. Argh, so many things are hinged on that! I'll go ask the gallbladders what they think when I meet them for dinner later.

Some good news though. I have been hired for one more day next week! Geherher. Now I'm supposed to think of something for a demonstration at a Chemistry booth for the school's science fair (or something). Any ideas anyone?

The Quest

Argh!

Someone please hire me pretty please!

I need to secure a temp job by the time NUSIS ends because I will not have any reason to moon around the house anymore. And it has to last me till school reopens.

And I need the moolah. Bad.

On another note, I am going to shoot for NUSIS! So exciting right. Hoho, they don't really expect anything spectucular, so I'll just have to train hard and do as normal then. Exposure, mon ami.

LBD

The past few days have been rather hectic. I was waking up, eating breakfast and then out of the house in 2 hours. Then I didn't return till late and I would be too comatosed to do anything by then. Last night was the worst: I started drafting my resume at 1 am. Then I woke up at 7 this morning to do the cover letter and to type the resume out. I hope my efforts pay off. *cross fingers*

Attended Peiwen's birthday lunch at Yuki no Yaki at Cineleisure today. It was more fun than I thought, though we spent more time waiting than eating. We waited for the steamboat to boil (the waitresses kept turning the thermostat down when they walked past in a bid to conserve power), for the meat to cook (simmering in its own oil) and for the cold plate to be cold enough so that the ice-cream would freeze. The food and the ice-cream was not fantastic though. I think it's the company that really matters. ;D

After that Peiwen, Addie, Boon, Huijia, Pui Man and I went to Robinson's to shop for Peiwen's bag. Then Pui Man left and the rest of us trooped off to bum at the food court. For some reason, Peiwen suddenly made up her mind to get her ears pierced and so leaving Boon to wait for her other half, we went to Bits and Pieces at Wisma. It was over very quickly; Peiwen was mildly traumatised. Ah, but now she has two holes in her earlobes from which she can suspend pretty pieces of metal.

I think this is the first time I've gone out with Addie, though we have been friends for so long now. Strange eh.

On my way home, I spotted this black dress at Metro which is really really pretty. It's spagetti strapped and is pleated with a simple bow in front. The cinch is this: it is only $19.90! Argh, I debated long and hard with myself but in the end, I decided that I am too poor now and that I don't need it anyway. Delayed gratification! I'll get a really nice LBD in the future.

Totally Productive!

I had the most productive day today. Yea, I woke up late and spent the whole day plus half the afternoon on "Angels and Demons", only breaking to cook maggie mee for lunch. I actually meant to go jogging but I couldn't wake up early enough and now it looks like it's gonna rain. So I guess I'll go tomorrow. Which means I better sleep early tonight!

I emailed *** about an attachment after I finish NUSIS. Let's hope the reply is favorable. *cross fingers* Now that I am gainfully unemployed, I'm trying to look busy and be helpful around the house so that I don't get nagged at. Argh. It's not that I don't want to work. But now my time is quite screwed up. Oh, I'll just volunteer for every single NUSIS thing.

Garbage has a new album! I'll get it after I start earning. Or when I get the pay for my TA stint. Ach, overdue!

New look!

Got a new look today after Brother grimaced at my pathetic layout when I told him that I've gotten myself a blog. I actually went around looking for a bogskin but nothing really appealed to me wholesale. So in the end I just found a picture and tweaked the blogger template a bit. This will be it for now... until I find something else!

Delayed Gratification

I first heard this term when I was in Secondary 3, when our geography teacher sat us down (ok, actually we were already sitting down) for a long lecture. I can't remember why she was so angry but I do remember her going on and on for half an hour about delayed and delaying gratification. I didn't think much of it then (besides that she was wildly exaggerating whatever sins we had committed) but I really do believe in delayed gratification now.

Anticipation just makes it all the more gratifying when you finally get it, n'est pas?