relief

after a gloomy weekend in my own paranoia, the accommodation problem is now happily resolved. i spoke to someone in the office and they have gotten the fax i sent on saturday. YAY! i get to stay in wolfson after all. *HUMONGOUS SIGH OF RELIEVE*

thanks pw, for being my sensible and sensitive support! you are truly invaluable. *muah*
thanks vo, for offering advice on how to deal with the uk people.
and thanks my boy, for listening to me gripe and putting up with my sour mood =)
thank you all!

now the sun shines again!


went to manda's 21st party last night. it was held at l'antipasto, a very hard-to-get-to restaurant in the middle of bukit timah area. but the food was really good and the service impeccable. should go try if you are feeling rich and feeling like enjoying good italian food with good ambience. the tiramisu and the calamari are must-tries!

manda was really pretty last night! as the theme was 'a venetian affair', she was dressed up in this black tube dress with a lace shrug. basically, she looked really, really elegant. i think zy was supposed to be a gondolier (as in the guy who rows the gondola in venice) because he wore a stripped polo shirt with a straw hat. but when he was not wearing the hat, he just looked underdressed for the event =_=" female guests came in various lacy, billowy and dressy stuff while male guests just looked semi-formal, as expected.

anyway, the evening passed pleasantly enough and when we weren't talking to manda or angela, we had cs to amuse us with his normal antics. we left the place around 11 and took a long walk out to the bus stop (walking in the total opposite direction the first time round!).

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist. People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you. You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words. Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

What Flower Are You?

You are a Lavender Rose

You represent love at first sight and enchantment. Your vibe: intense and intriguing Falling in love with you is: deep and meaningful

What Color Rose Are You?

You Are a Natural Beauty!

You're the kind of beauty that every guy dreams about... One that looks good in the morning - without a stich of makeup That's doesn't mean you're a total hippie chic though You have style, but for you, style is effortless

What Type of Beauty Are You?

wah, so good ar! heh.

Your Fashion Style is Classic

You like what's stood the test of time... Simple, well styled clothes that don't scream trendy You stay updated and modern, but your clothes stay in style for a while You wouldn't be caught in animal prints, fake fur, or super bright colors

What's Your Fashion Style?

really? haha, that's good to know!

You are a Rocker Girl!

If you don't have musical talent, you've got a talent for picking out great CD's. Music rules your life - and you've got the best MP3 collection of anyone you know. Many guys find you intimidating, but a select few think you're the catch of a lifetime. Start hanging out in more used record stores, and you'll find love with a fellow rocker!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

HAH!

Quizzes from plhu's blog

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

What Do Guys Like About You?

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Hey not bad! Mostly quite accurate I'd say. Though I don't think I'm much of a flirt actually. lol

many many things

Ok it's just me.
I just received an email from the KCL accommodations office, offering me a place in Wolfson House. That's good news, as that was my first choice. And pw got the same place too. But as the first excitement wore off, apprehension mounted. As always, when faced with sth I dread, I feel like running away. Why are they so terribly vague. Or am I supposed to get something else in my snail mail that will tell me more. But at the moment I am about as clear as mud with regards to what I have to do. I only know that I have to return the form to them by the 16th with photos attached and to pay 150 pounds as a security deposit kind of thingy. BUT. There are no details as to how I am supposed to pay! Ya, you said by credit or debit, but you didn't say to whom and where! Should I drop the money into the Singapore River and hope that it will float over? And by the by, there is definitely no way the darn form will reach them on the 16th. But that's not a major problem. Think they anticipated such things and so I can just email them to say so.

Bah, maybe everything is sitting in my mailbox now.
Ok ok, I am a worry-freak.

And I use too many 'but's. That's not a good sign. Probably means that I'm an indecisive mouse. Ah yes, what did I say about not being gungho enough?


On a totally different track, my two baby brothers are now residing on the sunny island of Pulau Tekong, having entered the nation's service to protect the motherland. My mum and I are probably the very few people not in the army who actually get to eat BMTC cookhouse food more than once in a single day. And excitingly, we managed to sit through both the wet-weather and fair-weather plans that was prepared for the day. Basically the wet-weather one is a watered-down version of the fair-weather one with loads of waiting around. But then since only that many parents would have 2 sons enlisting at different times in a single day (actually having 2 sons enlisting in a single year is already a feat in itself!), many just left the island none the wiser about what they missed.

My mum went throught the entire gamut of emotions in a single day, but most of the time it must have been anxiety. Especially in the morning when it was youngest brother turn to enlist. She feels that he can't take care of himself and he didn't help matters much by being moody the whole time we were on the bus to Pasir Ris. But then, of course he must have been anxious too, much as he refused to admit it! However, after seeing things for himself and knowing that he could deal with with it, his mood lifted drastically and he was soon back to his old self. Not that this made my mum less worried, but it did make ME less worried.

Then it was Round 2 in the afternoon, when second brother came in. My mum and I, we waited at Tekong and met my father when they came in. That my dad was around in the afternoon probably had some effect on calming my mum. And for some reason, she was just less worried for second brother. Which I think is ironic, because second brother was more worried than the youngest one about army life. And he is the more introverted one of the 2. In some ways, I actually think that my second brother and I are quite alike, especially character-wise. Haha, not that I've told him though. Anyway, we went through the whole tour and speech and food-tasting again, after which we had to leave. Oh, we managed to see the youngest one as he was hustled off with the morning enlistees while on Round 2. Now THAT was something family and parents were never meant to see, at least for their own child.

And so we left the 2 boys on Tekong where they would get their heads shaved and be put through the rites of passage to become men. As the banner at the Tekong jetty says "BMT: It is not what you leave behind, but what you will gain in the days ahead." In 2 weeks' time, I'm sure I'll be seeing some new aspects of them that I have not seen before.

garr

i wish that either no one i know reads this blog or loads of pple i know read this blog. but as it stands now, exactly one person i know read it.

some time back someone (a stranger) left me a comment and i was really happy abt it. but the link he left couldnt be found on blogger, and so that was that.

the reason i am glad that strangers read my blog is that then i feel like i can rant abt anything i want and still feel detached abt it. and that is also why i didnt publicise this url to my circle of friends. but then again, i will be doing that soon, so that pple will know what i'm up to in london. ah but that's for the future.

anyway, as the title says: garr.
as usual i feel totally incompetent after reading the blogposts of my more gungho friends. why am i not as gungho. i throw up my hands in exasperation. garr. the matter of the honours yr proj is just eating me up but i have totally no clue as to how to make it stop. ok, i suppose talking to profs would help. but how to talk intelligently when i have no clue. bah. ok at least i know i can tag along with pw when she makes her rounds of profs. thanks my friend... if you ever read this. am i glad that you are going london with me.

it's crappy la. i am truly a product of the singaporean education system. obedient, conscientious, mediocre and quiet. to a FAULT. what the. bah. and you'll have to add that to my character as well. i cant stand it. i know, i know. all i have to do is to speak out. cos i think i have enough wits not to sound stupid. but how do you undo ten over years of ingraining. i can only do it when i'm around pple i'm used to and close to. and that basically is the biggest problem isnt it. cos we all start out as strangers.

garr.